FTB

I now sign all my letters to Elder Davis with "FTB" which means "Find, Teach, Baptize" :)

Soooo... Elder Davis is now in Australia! Brisbane is 18 hours ahead of Vancouver. Pretty insane! I should get some pictures tomorrow from him, at least that's what he says. I'm excited :)

I was watching American Idol tonight and one of the guys sang the song "Storm Warning" but he WASN'T a country singer! Totally ruined the song! Here is the real version that I'm in love with.

Also, the song "You" by Chris Young makes my day every single time I hear it. This is my absolute favorite song right now. Can't get enough of it! And the music video is tooooo cute.

I am trying to look at the bright side of things. The past few weeks my main quote has been "I can't tell if it's killing me or making me strong" It's making me stronger for sure. 

Despite all this craziness, I still love my life. It's hard but we are all going to pull through and guess what? I'll live happily ever after. 

Hakuna Matata

I have fallen in love with
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Hakuna Matata. These things make me happy/smile/laugh/think :)

Missionaries = LOVE

If you all didn't know already... ILOVEMISSIONARIES!! Oh. My. Goodness. Seriously getting a missionary letter is like the best thing that has ever happened to me!! In Elder Davis' first letter he said he had quite a bit of time to write while in the MTC. His goal was to write me 7 letters. I definitely thought I would get like.. 3. Guess who got 7 letters? THIS GIRL. Well technically 3.. but there were multiple letters in each envelope. Anyway, he leaves for Australia on Monday and it takes about 2 weeks to send/receive anything. I have a feeling this is going to be a long 2 weeks. Up until this point the letters have been coming right when I start to feel upset or discouraged but maybe waiting for 2 weeks will make it that much more special :)
During gym the other day Elder Davis and Elder Ah Quin were playing volleyball and they both spiked the ball at the same time (he made sure I knew he won the spike though haha) and now he has a hairline fracture in his right ring finger, but the x-rays show it is miner and he shouldn't have to wear a splint for more than a week. It is so like him to get hurt while in the MTC... haha it's a good thing he is left handed! Glad he's okay though. He said him and his companion shared the gospel while in the hospital and they thought that was pretty cool :)
I just love letters. :D
Hope everyone has a good week!

If You Want The Rainbow...

Geez... Well this song just makes me bawl my eyes out. But you know what? I will be okay.
Right now I feel like I can only see from day to day. I used to be able to see way ahead in life, years and years. It's hard for me to visualize anything now a days. I'm stuck in this rut of "everything is soo far away!!" Hopefully I will snap out of it soon because not being able to have an imagination about the future gives me nothing to write about and I NEED to write. My writing right now is all sad and weird and I don't like that. I don't like writing about sad things! Also...
I don't like not having guys to talk to. Yeah I know that sounds dumb but I have always loved talking to my guy friends, sometimes even more than my girl friends. But what really upsets me is that the guy friends I have won't talk to me about what's going on. That's all I want. One guy to talk to me about what's going on in my life and to tell me it's going to be okay. Some of my girl friends have said all of this but it really is different coming from a guy friend. People say "Well write Aaron about it." No. That's not what you write missionaries about. You write them about the gospel and church experiences and you never let them know that you're having a terrible time or that you're missing them like crazy. That doesn't help anyone, it just makes both of you sad and worried. I just wish someone could see a little bit of what I see. Just a little bit. Even though I'm frustrated and confused and sad and a million other emotions, it can't really get any worse so it can only get better, right? If I want the rainbow, I gotta go put up with the rain... or.. typhoon. lol. Just trying to stay positive. Life is not over, it's just hard sometimes.

I'll be right here on the ground when you come back down <3

Meanest Dear John EVER :(:(

So I was reading some Dear John letters on dearelder.com and some girls so just SO RUDE!! This is the meanest one I have come across...

"Dear Elder Smith, 

I regret to inform you that you have been eliminated from further contention as "Mr. Right". As you are probably aware, the competition was exceedingly tough and dozens of well-qualified candidates such as yourself also failed to make the final cut. 

I will, however, keep your name on file should an opening come available. So that you may find better success in your future romantic endeavors, please allow me to offer the following reason(s) you were disqualified from the competition: 

·__Your last name is objectionable. I can't imagine taking it, hyphenating it, or subjecting my children to it.

·__The fact that our finest dining experience to date has been at McDonald's reveals a thriftiness that I find unappealing.

·__You failed the 20 Question Rule, i.e., I asked you 20 questions about yourself before you asked me more than one about myself.

·__ You're too short. Any son that we produced would inevitably be beaten up repeatedly at recess.

·__You're too tall. I'm developing a chronic neck condition from trying to kiss you.

·__You have a hairy back.

·__ I find your inability to fix my car extraordinarily unappealing.

·__The fact that your apartment has been condemned reveals an inherent slovenliness that I fear is unbreakable.

·__Although I do enjoy the X-Files, I find your wardrobe of Star Trek uniforms a little disconcerting.

·__Your frequent references to your ex-girlfriend lead me to suspect that you are some sort of psychotic stalker.

·__Your ability to belch the alphabet is not a trait that I am seeking in a long term partner.

·__Your height is out of proportion to your weight. If you should, however, happen to gain the necessary 17 vertical inches, please resubmit your application.

·__The fact that you categorize the ProBowler's Tour as 'must see TV' demonstrates that you do not meet my intelligence requirements.

·__Although I do plan to support my husband in his interests and hobbies, watching you beat the 67th level of Tetris does not rank in my book as â equality time.

·__Your decision to buy me a wrench for my birthday after I had specifically requested perfume shows a gift selection impairment I feel unequal to correct.

·__Our culinary tastes diverge too greatly. You consider Rice-A-Roni a banquet, and believe pesto is a cleaning product.

·__My idea of a dream home does not have the words, â-double-wide in the title.

·__I am out of your league; set your sights lower next time.

Sincerely, 

Jennifer"


One of them I saw was not signed "love" or "from" or even "sincerely" it was signed "Many handshakes" Poor Elders :(:(

LETTERS!!!

It realllllly bothers me when people say they are so "real" and they don't even know what real is. Their version of "real" to me is RUDE. If you're going to be real find a way to be nice about it.

Aside from that little rant...
I had the BEST week!! There was only 3 and a half days of school and now we have a 4 day weekend. AND I got my first letters from Elder Davis!! Pretty much the best day ever. I started bawling before I even opened it! When I opened it and saw three lined pieces of paper all with "Dear Belle" at the top it took me a while to even open them up I was so excited! I'm so glad he is doing well and having an amazing time. I cannot wait to hear about all these awesome things he's going to go through. Sadly he sent his letters the SAME DAY mine got to him. So we haven't really caught up yet. But hopefully we can with this weeks letter. I LOVE MY CHURCH! <3

Be The Windshield, Not The Bug

My frustration continues.
It is super annoying when your friends try to tell you stuff that you already know. Someone even told me the yesterday "I don't get why you even had a relationship with a guy before his mission." Thanks. That made me feel so much better about my life. Next time tell me something I DON'T already know. Then I get offended and they try to make it better with the whole "I'm just trying to help." When was the last time saying something rude helped someone when they were upset? Hmm never. I'm sure everyone is annoyed with my little rants on here but I have to release all my negative energy somewhere and I'm trying not to let it out on others.
Music helps me a lot. I can turn one my iPod and start singing and that reminds me that everything will be okay. I love singing.
One a more positive note I got to spend a lot of time with my sister this week/weekend. We went to see The Vow yesterday and ended up running into a bunch of people in the same theater. The movie was soo good but the ending made me SO MAD! But I saw the preview for Titanic in 3D and they made it look like a really good movie. Also the preview for The Lucky One.... ohhhh my gosh. Zac Efron, hellooooo. Definitely going to see that one.
I took some personal time yesterday in the morning to write Aaron. Writing him is going to be a good experience. It was so nice to finally be able to tell him I had wanted to throughout the week. I think I'm going to start keeping a notebook of things that I want to tell him in my next letter. There was one day this week when I just wanted to talk to him so bad but I couldn't do anything about it. So I wrote a few things down to help me remember what I wanted to tell him so I could add that into my next letter. The thing that is hardest for me is that most of my friends don't understand what I'm going through so when they ask me what's wrong I just have to say nothing and pretend like I was just day dreaming or something. It's hard for me to tell people how I'm feeling when I know they aren't going to have a response for me. That is some pretty deep stuff to take in so most people just say "Oh... I'm sorry." and I smile and say "It's okay." Putting on an act of being happy has never been so hard but it is getting easier with time. I know that soon I will be okay with everything and I will be able to be myself again. My dad said to me the other day "Sometimes in life you're the bug and sometimes you're the windshield. This week you have just been the bug." This week I'm trying to be the windshield and just take the hits and keep on going.

...A Clean Break No One Here To Save Me

I honestly don't know where to start. It's been a really hard week. My best friend/boyfriend left for his mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints on Tuesday. He will be going to Brisbane, Australia. I won't see him for two years and our only communication will be through letter. Letters. Letters, letters, LETTERS. I'm going to be writing a lot of letters because I'm having a hard time. It is just hard for me to go through this because I always knew that no matter what was going on in my day, the dumbest thing could happen and I could talk to Aaron about it. He would always talk to me about anything. It could have been something so simple such as my phone breaking, or someone said something offensive to me. Other people don't really care about the little things like that. But he always did. So writing will have to be my saving grace during this time. I know that he will do amazing but that doesn't mean I won't miss him.
I am glad that I have friends who do care though. HANNA LAWS. Thank you for checking up on me and being someone to talk to and turn to. MOMMMM. Thanks dealing with my crying and sadness all the time. DADDY. Thanks for making me laugh no matter what. SEEESTER. You always make me smile and we always have fun rocking out together and just being ourselves. And thank you to all my other friends who have tried to help me so far. You haven't gone unnoticed <3
I'm going to be upset for a while but I know that everything will be okay. I can do this and I hope he is doing okay too. Even though my relationship status is "single",nothing will make me love him less, not even 13,000 miles between us.
I try to remember one of the last things I said to Aaron and he really liked it... 2 years<ETERNITY
No matter what you're going through, try to stay strong. Although it's really hard sometimes, faking a smile is better than everyone knowing that something is really bothering you.